Knight in Shining Armor

When I was a little girl, I asked my mother "what shall I be? Shall I be pretty, shall I be rich?" and this is what she said to me... Que sera sera what will be will be, the future is not yours to see que sera sera....

The song put a frame around me and caused me to realize that the future was mine... What will be will be... By my design...

My grandma bought me and all the little kids a couple of fairy tale books and nursery rhyme books... I loved my books... Daily, I read the stories wondering about the Princess's and the knights who came to their rescue... I believe in love and the beauty of love yet, I never have wanted to be weak. I have pushed so many men out of my life because of the fear of love and the fear of relationships ending. How do I find that place where my fairy tale dreams come true?
I never expect anyone to like me. When I am liked, I think it's cool and at the same time.. I expect people to not like me... Sometimes I don't feel like a real person. I am like Pinnochio... A doll who aches to be real... I'm a nobody with the face of a somebody...

Perhaps I need saving, from myself so that I don't disappear. Is there a knight out there?

A Vison...A Dream

I had a vision
A dream of timelessness
Complete one~ness
Connected physically
Connected spiritually
A cellular bond

Souls bonding
And physical recognition
The Two shall become One
This completion is as old has time
In the beginning
Time and Matter were separate
From Soul and Spirit

Our world was created when Time
Mated with Spirit
For Matter cannot exist without Time
As Soul cannot exist without Spirit
The passion collided and new life was formed
A world of Spirit filled Matter
Trees and grass
Earth and stone
Humanity was born

In passion, we transcend time
Returning to the beginning
Returning to the memory of Spirit
The first mating
The first ecstasy
The first time we truly connected as one