Psychic Car, perhaps?

So, Yesterday I worked at the Pharmacy. After work I stopped by my Doctor office job to check messages and etc...Drove home and felt compelled to clean out my car. I almost live in my car! I have 4 job locations...and I am often going from one to the other and when I get home...whatever is in the car, is in the car...until I finally clean it out... I had clothes, shoes, coffee cups, vitamin shaker cups, sheets, trash, bottled water, pens and lots of change all over that car...Needless to say, I enjoyed finding "stuff" while I was cleaning!!! I found a few things that had been missing for months!!!! Then, I figured...Let's take the car to the car wash...it had not been washed since, like ever...I don't even remember...and then, we vacuumed the car...When I say we, it is the kid and I... LOL We drove to Walmart, to pick up a couple of items and then stopped at Sonic for a nice little ice cream treat!!! I stopped the car...We sang songs...and ate the ice cream...and then, I went to start the car, and NOTHING!....the car had plenty of juice...lights on...it would not turn over...no sound...no clicking...nothing...so, I put her in Neutral...roll the car forward...turn the wheels...put her back in park...try to start her up...and NOTHING...So, I sat there and every few minutes...I tried again... So, I told the kid that we would be walking home...and we would deal with getting it home later...he said to me, "mom, I am so glad the you are not like other people!" I looked at him and gave him a quizzical expression...which he responded with..."you don't hit the car and yell...other people would do that and you t sit there nice and calm." Well, I really wanted to hit the car, but...what good would it do? Walking home was no big deal, we live close to the Sonic...so, I just smiled and let him know that it will be okay... I called a buddy of mine to come out and see if he could do anything...and yeah, no...he could not...so, since it was so late...I started looking online for a Topw Truck service in my area...I was immediately drawn to a Full Service Center, right in town...I felt compelled to call and then I figured that they would be closed...so I called a 24/7 tow place and had them tow my car home...$55 and 5 minutes after my car was hooked up...it was in front of my house...it took longer to do the paper work then it did to tow the car... Such is the way it is...I sure did not want to leave my car overnight at a public location... I did some research, last night...(my buddy was thinking it was the starter) me, I think it is either the Starter Relay switch or a faulty ignition...so, I did my looking around online and found that if you spray a little WD-40 in the ignition...it could prompt the ignition to work...so, because I cleaned out my car that day...I knew that I had some WD-40 in the trunk...I waited til this AM to spray it in...probably should have done it last night...cause my car did not start. My mother gave me a ride to work and on my way...I started looking up shops in my area and again felt compelled to call that Auto Center...so...I did...I immediately felt at ease with the guy and for $45 he would come get it...and for another $79.95 he would put her on the diagnostic machine...again...such is the way it is..so, that being said...he picked up my car this AM...and funny thing...He put the key in and it started right up for him...so, he turned her off and tried again..and this time it did not...he thinks it is in the ignition as well...so, now...we shall see what is up with my Psychic car... My mom offered to let me keep her truck today...and I had that feeling of no worries...come over me...that it would be okay...so, I sent her on her way and now I am at home...without a car...And I am okay with what will happen next...Now, I am looking forward to finding out what is up with my car... I am a bit short on cash this week...but again...I still feel...okay...it is all gonna work out...everything will be good...and I'm not stressing...So, I will update you all on the story, later this eve or on the morrow!! :)

Vibrations

Sometimes, the urge to write overwhelms and fills me full of a kind of desperation. The urgency is intense. The need cannot be quenched until I sit at a blank piece of paper or a blank document on the computer. My hand to pen or keyboard and I sigh... there is the beginning of relief because I know that somehow I am gonna recieve a really cool message. The other night, I could not sleep. I was 100% awake. I did not feel the need for rest and at the same time, I knew that I needed to get some sleep for the day ahead. So, I figured if I can't beat em....I will at least try to join em... Here is where I sat up and began to meditate. An extremely simple meditation, no thought...no focus...only the sound of silence. Silence is where I find my greatest peace. Silence is my real home. My place of rest. As I settled, I began to listen. I heard the sound of the crickets singing outside my window and then above the sound of the earth I heard the silent ring begin to rise. Singing ever so sweetly, my comforting ring of silence. There are many levels of sound. The earthly sound, which is what we all hear...life moving and living...The ring of silence, as I mentioned before is a bit of a higher tone than the sound of life moving...I often wonder if this is the sound of an energy, being...The sound is similar to the noise of a hearing aid screeching, only not as loud or aggravating... As I settled and listened to my silence, I begin to notice a new sound. A deeper sound. One that resonated in a vibrating sense within and all around me. I could still hear the earthly sounds and the ring of silence...and distinguish one from the other, so I focused on the new sound to find out what I would be able to hear and feel...What I noticed, was that as I concentrated on this vibration...the other sounds began to dissipate...In curiosity, I focused my "hearing" on the other sounds and could return to them quite easily...yet still...this new one...this deep hummmm of vibration intrigued me. This sound comes from a higher place, in the realm of my understanding, I hear the ring of silence at my ear level. The earthly sounds at my body level. This vibration sound came from higher up...My awareness of the place was at least six feet above and diagonal from my head. As I continued listening, let me consider this word...listen...when considering this way of understanding, this deeper vibration...it isn't entirely a listen...it is a feel...it is what it is...there is not a listen in the sense of listening...not a feeling in the sense of feeling...it is an experience...and I remember marveling at the way I was experiencing this movement of energy... Could it be that I slipped outside of the realm of time. Where the movement of time does not exist and all is an experience. All is happening at once and all is known, at once. My world still revolved, I still sat on my bed...and at the same time...there was nothing and everything all at once... I saw myself/or experienced myself walking (moving) up a dark incline...mountain like...toward a cliff overlooking a large expanse of whatever it was...mist and darkness...if I was in a place where "thought" mattered...I would have called it a sea...yet here...there was no thought...there was only what was happening and what was happening was something I am still not sure how to "be" with...There was a woman in a light blue cloak long dark hair up in a lose bun. She was concerned and aggravated with me for not listening to her. I did not hear words, only the impression of her feelings...she did not like that I take the initiative to go forward without consulting her...she is my guide...and I am as a rebellious child who believes that I can handle all of my tasks here...alone...in my way...and in my time...for her...there is no time...she only feels the agony when I feel the agony...she feels the love when I feel the love...the sadness...the excitment..and so on and so forth...She experiences my all...with me...in my all-ness...She needs to prove herself to me..to be adequate for the job at hand and for some reason...in my stubbornness...I do not allow her to consult with me...I go above her...I am not trusting her... I always listen. I always question what I hear. Seem shocked that I am right. Yet, expect that I should be right because I already had an inkling of an idea. The knowledge has always been there. Easily accessible for me...Is it that I do not trust my higher self? What happened that has caused me to question what is known? My higher self is experiencing my entire life in completeness...past, present, and future do not exist in her place of existence...So, how do I bring it all together...how do I bring it in...and let it be what it is...and relax into myself... So, I listen to this beautiful, tragic woman above me..on a cliff overlooking what might be a sea...and I quietly drift off to sleep... Days later...I know I need to encounter this moment, face myself and begin to trust in acceptance.