Vampire Days

Some days it don't come easy, and some days it don't come hard Some days it don't come at all, and these are the days that never end Some nights you're breathing fire, and some nights you're carved in ice Some nights you're like nothing I've ever seen before or will again... Meatloaf (I would do anything for love)

Yeah... today was a vampire day... Lab Work, Blood Draw...No biggee.... except, it is a big deal..In two weeks, I will find out if my medicene is still working. This is such a strange feeling. Really strange...Memories of the realness of the virus creep up and invade the mind.Memories of the past...The Memories suck...Reality hits you smack dab into the gut and then the back pains start...from anxiety of actually going and having the blood taken...I even had trouble sleeping last night... argh...So, I went in this afternoon...knowing that sometimes, it takes a while to get into the room for the vampire to begin sucking..

I had to wait almost an hour and a half... I am not a good sitter...but, this ID Doc is wonderful and extremely popular... The funny thing, is...that once the process has started and is done...I relax...my back quits hurting..The unfortunate part is...in two weeks, I will have the same pains and anxiety all over again. For the lab results...

Some days I pray for silence
Some days I pray for soul
And some days I just pray to the gods of sex and drums and rock and roll (Meatloaf again)

Every time I visit my Doc... I begin to have a sense of pride...I am capable...I am doing well... I am handling my life to the best of my ability.

Look at me...I am HIV +
I am beautiful
I am smart
and sensitive
and amazing
There is nothing out there that I cannot accomplish...if I set my mind to it...

I like me... I like being who I am...
There is magic in being comfortable in your own skin...and I am one magical lady!!!
So, bring on those Vampire days...suck me dry and tell me my numbers...cause numbers do not lie!!!
I will update this, in two weeks with my results!!!